This subject has been on my mind for quite some time now and since I just encountered this exact thing, I thought that now would be the perfect time to talk about it.
First, I just want to preface this by saying that I've been in deep hermit mode for the past 6-7 years now. When I started my journey the universe/God isolated me on purpose so that I could do the necessary inner work that would eventually set me on the path of doing the work that I do today. But with that work also came a lot of hardship including losing all of the people I had in my life at the time and shutting myself off from most of the world. During this time, I was highly focused on healing/my health, tapping into and enhancing my intuitive/psychic gifts and expanding my awareness/consciousness. And multiple ego deaths later, or death of the false aspects of self that I had taken on or created for protection, here we are.
As I slowly started to re-enter society by re-joining social media I was bombarded with impressions of what it meant and looked like to be a spiritualist and I felt like a very small fish in a big pond. I felt like I didn't fit in anywhere even within my own community. There were spiritual people who were younger than me, who had been on their journey longer than me. But something I noticed that never quite sat right with me was that, a lot of them spoke about inclusivity, community and how we were all one and yet all I saw was them posting pictures of the same friends and promoting these same friends' work and only these friends and quickly found out that they weren't really looking to make any new ones. Or you’d see people who would repost quotes from popular gurus and ascended masters, regurgitating and sharing the same sayings and information that you’d normally see floating around (not that there's anything wrong with this) but without being able to formulate their own ideas or conclusions or speak from any personal experience. This still happens even now, as I try to find those in my community and on social media who I authentically vibe with.
For example, someone, actually a few people who were recommended to me on social media recently, turned out to not be exactly who they claimed to be. And you might say, ‘What makes you say that, Melissa? How can you be sure?’ Well, one of these people (without naming names) who, if you were to quickly look at their profile, comes off as being very inclusive, very, ‘let's help one another, let's meet others to follow, build community etc.’ went live today with their buddies and not only were they not talking about anything that you'd think they would be talking about but they named the live ‘the lunch table’ and no, they weren't talking about nor were any of them the people from the podcast of the same name. Now, as a highly intuitive empath, this set off a bunch of alarms for me because generally, the lunch tables in school were where everyone sat separated into categories or cliques. And yes, you could join in and listen to what they had to say and therefore come and “sit at their table” I suppose but it still gave an air of separateness instead of inclusion because they hand-selected the people that they were talking to and it felt very much like they were simply allowing us to listen in on what the cool kids had to say. And I thought, ‘I don't care to join you at your lunch table.’ I’d rather be the table, an open table, with unlimited seating. I want people to be able to come sit by me because they feel comfortable to. Where they know they’re free to get up and leave when they’re ready and everyone is welcome at the table. The table wouldn't belong to any one group or person. I'm speaking metaphorically of course and I suppose there would be some exceptions. We’re not going to have people mishandling or abusing the table but I digress. And upon further inspection, I ended up being right when it came to my suspicions about this person.
But this is the kind of thing I'm talking about and that we see a lot of within the spiritual community. And you'd think, for people who claim to be so self-aware and highly conscious that they'd know better but obviously, they don't. This is the sort of thing that rubs me the wrong way and really grinds my gears. I don't care about spiritual hierarchy, which, in my opinion, doesn't exist because we are all spiritual beings having a human experience and because it only perpetuates the ongoing illusion of separation between us all. There is always more to learn and higher levels of consciousness to attain and to judge or shun others based on their level of consciousness or awareness is wrong in my opinion. These people may in fact be highly aware but what often happens is their spiritual ego and even spiritual narcissism tells them that everyone else isn’t and they start to believe that they are somehow superior and that no one will notice or pick up on these things but then there are people like me, who are able to see through the mask, through the facade.
I guess for me, what it comes down to at the end of the day is, NOT whether we’re on the same vibration or have the same level of understanding but the kind of person you are. Are you who you say you are? It's about personal integrity. I don't agree with people who feel the need to pretend or lie in order to gain favour or attention from others and who are led solely by their ego. And I'm not talking about the healthy ego either. Now, I understand that not everyone thinks like me and Lord knows I'm far from perfect. I certainly don't think I'm better than anyone but one thing you’ll always get with me is the truth. What you see is what you get with me and I'm known for keeping it real with people, including myself and my heart is always in the right place. I’m also not judging these people but I do get to choose who I invest my time and energy into and who I support and give my attention to.
I think people need to be more careful with who they follow on social media, and who they're subscribing to and to use discernment when engaging with people, no matter what community we’re talking about because appearances can be deceiving but energy never lies. Not all that glitters is gold and this is coming from someone who loves to give others the benefit of the doubt. But if I even get a whiff of deception or I see that your heart is not in the right place, nothing will stop me from quietly removing myself and leaving you be. Today was a huge lesson and test for me in discernment and personal integrity. And even though I may not have seen things for what they were right away, the gifts that I’ve worked so hard to understand and hone were able to protect me so that I could make an informed decision about what kind of example I would be setting by following these people, no matter how popular they are or how many followers they have. I also feel much more confident moving forward as I continue to put myself out there and connect with others who authentically resonate with me, my message and my journey.
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